i am beginning to believe that there is a time for everything. Like a time to be in love and a time to be out of love, a time of being with people and a time of being alone, a time of success and a time of failure...thats the wonder of life isnt it?

i've also realised that life is indeed a circle of events and emotions that happen all over and over - that it takes many forms but in substance the same...and the reason it happens many folds is for us who are in it to learn and unlearn...that is to learn what we fail to learn from previous occurance and to unlearn and relearn from what we thought we have learnt enough.

and it strikes me recently that i am, in a point of time, seeing my life and whole being regressing..in a good sense that is and thus the post for it...that all of a sudden i found myself redoing or reliking what i used to do then stop doing or used to like but stop liking...

some examples like....

1) i found myself craving for milo once more

that milo was my favourite breakfast drink when i was a primary school kid...and deviated from it when i went secondary school and after i got introduced to long john silver and ice-lemon tea...and in JC found myself in love with green tea and teh bing...uni days were predominantly about fruit juices...as well as the occasional craving for a cuppa of iced latte...and for now...slowly but surely milo finds its way back into my life once more and regains its importance in my life. nothing beats a hot cup of milo through those late nights at work.

milo however is still not everything...because teh si is still what makes my day..and im suffering from cold turkey now from the lack of my daily cup of teh si because no shops open to sell teh si during 初一 ...at least not in my vicinity...moreover, im still very into sitting in coffee houses and get immensed in the aroma of coffee..and thus a cuppa of latte is still a promised heaven and best when served with a slice of cheesecake to send me to cloud nine. see...life is a circle!

2) i found myself tuning in to love 97.2 and gold 90.5

call me aunty or ah ma or whatever you like but yes im just so swirled into the songs that love 97.2 and gold 90.5 play nowadays...especially this chinese new year...listening to all the classic cny songs and the occasional off-season but classic songs that have followed my growth all these years...its just so heart-warming...a natural affiliation to those growing up days and all of a sudden i just feel so singaporean!...days of catchy tunes with cliche lyrics, simple music with no-frill instrumental remix...where as little kids, we sang those love songs we heard from our mothers' or grannies' favourite radio stations, thinking we know all about love and friendship...and subsequently grow to depart from these oldies in the midst of creating our own identity and personality while subscribing to pop music that flood yes 93.3...oh yes and remember Simone, Honky Tonk, God-Pa and Short Fart from the then all-time favourite perfect 10 radio show with Glenn and Rod? :)


3) i found myself moving inwards to family and home

like a tired bird retreating into its nest (倦鸟归巢）, i see myself more and more inclined to spending time at home and with my family...remember those times when we long to run back home after school? or perhaps snippets of hanging out with friends, sitting at those shopping centre floor and pouring our hearts out to each other ring a bell? or even more recently, those clubbing nights, late-night suppers, mid-night movies are more close to hearts? i've been there, done them and done with all that..so whats next? thumbs up for those who says back to square one! haha...

i have no qualms about being labelled as anti-social but to deem me as one who doesnt value friendship will be an understatement. i wont defend further how much i cherish close friends because if you're in my circle of trust, you're in and i'll be there for you if the siren is sound. i love my family and my home and i love my friends. Each is like the different parts of me, my five senses...and without any one, my whole being is pretty much crippled..and life less wholesome...so probably for now..it's really a time about being with my family and myself.

there's so much more and i need to give them thorough thoughts and proper sorting before they can be translated into words..till then...thats all for now! :)